M o u n t a i n F a b r i c

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As the battered
wheels climb thousands
more feet above
the unending sea,
my mummed heart
undresses slowly.

My nakedness
embraces the
soft mountain fabric
made by murmurs of
the wind and leaves
of the giant
green guardians of
the endless Himalayas.

I am home.

02.13.2018
©2018 Rosemawrites@A Reading Writer. All Rights Reserved.
Photo via my dearest Shubhodeep Roy

In response to dVerse Quadrille #50 using the word “murmur”. This is inspired by my recent trip in India which touched my soul in a different level. 🙂 You can read more about it here.
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Endings and Beginnings (2017 Edition)

Oh, what a rollercoaster you have been, 2017?

The leaves of this year’s calendar is all but gone. With Sara Bareilles “December” playing on my background, with the lyrics:

Distill a whole year down into a day
Act like we all start over with a pristine slate
But to get yourself a new life you’ve got to give the other one away
And I’m starting to believe in the power of a name
‘Cause it can’t be a mistake if I just call it change

let me try to write about this crazy year and what I hope for the next.

The text cursor keeps on blinking, my mind keeps on trying to find the beginning of this post. Where should I start?

So… January 2017 I turned 25 (which I kind of talked about in this poem). It is like 1/3-life-crisis as I remember asking myself, “What have you done? What have you finished? What have you created that you should be proud of?”

It’s a crazy state of asking questions no one can actually answer. So in the end of it all, I let it be. (I’ve been so good at letting things be this year. Not sure if that is good or bad though.)

After the milestone birthday, blog world has been silent while I pour all my energy on Instagram. The camaraderie of the poets there reminded me of how it was here on WordPress, when I was just getting acquainted with my poet-self. I remember being around the awesome group of poets who grew and learned with me. Until one by one they left.

Come May, I released my first poetry collection, Between My Bleeding Lines

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It was exciting to see your words printed and published with a lovely cover by my dear Sarah Doughty. I have honestly no high hopes for this one, and true to “what you think will happen, happens”, it did not soar. Does it matter?

It will be a hypocrite answer to say, “No, book sales doesn’t matter.” Because it does. Who wouldn’t want to hit it big in the first try? Who wouldn’t want to be like Lang Leav and Rupi Kaur? Of course, I do. But I’ve got no expectations and maybe has so little faith. And it showed. It doesn’t make the journey of birthing a book a little less exciting and fulfilling, though. 🙂

Publishing is an uncharted sea I was able to try this year. While the reward isn’t as fruitful, the lessons I learned and the people that made the baby book possible are enough rewards for now. 🙂

In between the hullaballoo of the release and the consistent posting on Instagram, are work tasks which eventually lead me to another “first” of the year which happened last October! My first airplane ride, my first beach experience, and my first out-of-the-country travel trip! (Thailand! :D)

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And 2017 won’t let itself end without a bang as after I went to Thailand for a client’s event, a new job was waiting for me. I was accepted. Considering the family and not myself, I have to accept. Here we go. I have to dive into another uncharted sea.

In between these milestones, I have loved and I have lost. I have given a second chance, and right now, I think that battle is another war that I’ve lost. I want to believe that I’m a brave and not a coward soldier, who knows when to give up. ‘Cause I’m laying down my sword and my armour, it’s time to let people go.

Apologies for such a melancholic post, but believe me, I have a tired heart filled with hope. Like a badly wounded soldier, I’m dusting off my knees and cleaning my wounds.

I am ready for 2018 and the amazing ride it will bring. I am ready to swim the strange sea. I am ready to love and be loved again. I am ready to write and try and try again. I am not at my best position right now, but it doesn’t mean it won’t get better.

It is far better to start the year on bended knee, for that’s the best time to call to the mighty He. I know He will be with me.


HAPPY NEW YEAR, everybody!

neurotic grooves

Neurons and synapses
used to grooving 
fast and relentless
then comes the
sudden screech,
stop, brake.

The drum’s
beating groove
surrendered to
the piano’s gentle
melancholy,
a shift in melody,
slowed down
the catastrophe,

for the first time
the neurons learned
how to pause
and take a break.

P.S. The change in job is giving my mind a bittersweet feeling. I am used to having a lot of tasks to do, resulting to a stressed out mind. Now I have less work to do, inching to almost boring. But then, change is as constant as breathing. So there. 🙂

12.13.2017
©2017 Rosemawrites@A Reading Writer. All Rights Reserved.
Photo by Tadas Mikuckis@tadasmikuckis

In response to dVerse Poetics: How Are You Feeling Today?
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Mind’s Colorful Beats

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“The soul becomes dyed with the colour of its thoughts.” ― Marcus Aurelius, Meditations


I am currently…

Loving… writing poetry
‘cause I don’t know I have them in me.  

Eating… chewy moniegold.
Drinking… water, not cold.

Watching… nothing, really.
Going… to exercise my right to vote, freely.

Reading… The Nightingale by Kristin Hannah.
Texting… my beloved papa.

Playing… nothing again.
Working… on new poems again. 😉

Listening… to sad poetic songs by Sara Bareilles.
Thanking… God for giving me nothing less.

Buying… gift for Nanay on Mother’s Day.
Planning… how to make her feel special.

Visiting… nothing but places from the book.
Wondering… if I will ever learn how to cook. 😀

Feeling… contented, excited,
for the words I’ll be reading and writing next.

Photo credits: Unsplash


The Great Book of Lists by La duchesse d’Erat

Chapter 5.0– I am currently

Thank you for one awesome prompt list,  Laduchessederat! ❤ I missed you! ❤

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Monday Musings: On friendship

Monday Musings

Start the week with some wise words worth pondering. – rosemawrites

Great Monday everyone! 😀

I have been absent for five days and yes, sadly I was not able to finish the amazing Writing 201 course. 😦

Work has been super busy since Wednesday… and I think will be busy for the coming days, too.

While I was all stressed out last week, it was pure bliss when I opened my inbox this morning and saw two personal messages from my two good friends, both from Writing 101 and Writing 201. Hey there, Vijaya and Jacqueline!

My heartfelt thanks to the two of you! ❤ Seriously, I was so touched that you missed me! 😀

So today’s wise words are inspired by my dearest blogger friends, Vijaya and Jacqueline.

From: The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald

The Great Gatsby

My thoughts:

I consider friends as the best treasures in life.

Since my elementary days up to during my high school and college lives, I have collected a few but truly good friends.

Until now, I am still connected with some of them. Some have their own family already but we always make it a point to see each other and do catch-up.

Because friendship, just like any relationship, requires effort. 🙂 It requires a willing heart to remain friends. 

I am happy, and so glad that blogging became a way to have great friends. 🙂

And I will exert all efforts to maintain it.

🙂

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