I write because I read. I read because I write.
As of the moment
You surely know how
our hands feel powerless,
as if we sailed too far
from our familiar land,
stuck amidst the blue
vast sea of uncertainty
we are not sure how
deep, how long will this
salted wilderness be.
An anchor weighs heavy
yet can keep ships steady
amidst a brutal shore.
You’re mine and more.
Here are my palms lifted
as far as one can reach,
open our ears, our hearts for
the lessons You want to teach.
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December streets twinkling
sprinkled earth-based stars,
children giggling
despite knees’ scars,
gold bells singing
with wooden guitars,
sweet smiles brimming
over jovial jars,
30,000 flying,
I watch for afar,
our planet glow-
ing ‘bove hate’s ashen char,
hope, faith, joy fill-
ing Christmas’ delivery car.
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Feeble waves made
of infant dusk’s soft wind,
liquid mirror glows
with sunset’s pastel rind.
Fallen plumeria floats,
decaying but still blooming,
faith, be fluid like water —
rippling, shape-shifting, unending.
In Psychology they say,
the glass will be half empty
or half full based on
how you see it,
on my way home
late last night,
I paused a minute
to look up
to the hundreds
of the stars I can see,
and the thousands more
I cannot see.
For some reasons
they reminded me
of the many things that stains
my heart with melancholy,
and the much more things
unknown to me
that should paint me happy.
So I choose
to start my journey
to discovering
each unchartered joys
life has hidden for me.
I’m sure the glass
will not only be full,
it
will
overflow.
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Happy Monday, everybody! 🙂
Your love is a flood and I’m
Caught in the current of Your living waters
It’s Your love, it’s Your love
Your presence is a flood
And I’m caught in the wonder
You have taken me over
You have won my heart
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i have wandered far
from Your loving bay,
i believed alone i
can pave my own way.
step one, two, then three
i walked away slowly
from Your presence like
a bird breaking free.
not knowing never have
You locked me inside
of Your words and light,
my God, bring me back.
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inside a cage filled with fog of fear, she stays alone trying to heal the scars of the past of all that is done, the ache of the present she cannot share with anyone, the uncertainty of the future coming with each rising sun.
will i be able to stop looking back and leave the footsteps i have made? will i regret the decisions i have made? will i be able to see a better tomorrow or all that’s left is heart’s sorrow?
as morning rays slip through the tiny cracks of her cave, she cannot help but let hope grow inside. with the leftover, brittle faith she holds on to, she’s coming out. she’s coming out.
she finally choose
to sink not in fog of fear
but in sea of faith.
hayesspencer (Toni).
This is my prayer in the desert
When all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides
This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame
This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I’ll stand
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favour and providence flow
I know I’m filled to be emptied again
The seed I’ve received I will sow
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship
Last week was hellish at work. The coming weeks might be worst because the major event will happen on December 13th. But as this song says, may it be a hellish or heavenly, I will still choose to sing, to worship the good good God who blessed me in ways I will never be able to fathom.
Life surely knows how to knock us down. But my dear, come back stronger. Stand up. Stand tall. We can do this! ❤
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The clouds will rain
The seasons change
(Cause You told them to)
The sun will shine
Your burning light
(Cause You told it to)
When You speak your words through my soul
So I know it’s true
You’re in control
In control
In control
The stars in the sky will hang there
’til You tell them to
The faith in my heart will still sing
Of what Your love can do
And even when life weighs heavy on me
I know You’re in control
And You’re all I need
The stars in the sky will hang there
’til You tell them to
Last week was a major life-turning week for me. I was badly sick, physically, emotionally. It is a turmoil. A catastrophic week.
But as I regain my health, now comes the agony, the fear. If the decision I made was right. I was brave when I said the final goodbye, but now I am afraid of the pain that will come with the coming days.
But then, He is in control. He holds the stars. He controls the moon and the sun. He is enough to comfort my weary heart. He is enough. ❤
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Join us?All this pain
I wonder if I’ll ever find my way
I wonder if my life could really change at all
All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found
Could a garden come up from this ground at all
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us
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There are days when I feel like a filth. Filth of sin. Filth of envy. Filth of hate. But then, He made me wonderfully. Most of all, despite my filth, He embraces me willingly, lovingly. Is there more than I can ask for? None, anymore. ❤
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