Today’s the first day of my last day with you. I’m a bit confuse, though, because my heart’s melancholic yet it’s full of joy.
Six decades, six decades and four years to be exact. That’s how long we have been together.
A lot asked how we remained committed for so long, how we kept the fire burning. We have no answer, we just look at each others’ eyes, and smile. Nothing’s too long, and no there’s no fire. It’s simple. Marriage is a choice you made everyday.
Perfect marriage isn’t true. Like any couple, we fight, cursed and almost fell apart. You cheated, twice. It took me too long to forgive, in fact, I almost packed my bags. But we choose to make amends. Why? Because it’s worth it.
No rough roads can equal our simple pleasures. It’s more than sex. It’s more than kisses. It’s your soft whispers every morning that gave me chills until we’re both seniors.
You never say good morning. Instead, you whisper Emily Dickinson’s words to my ears: “Forever is composed of nows.” It has been our marriage’s mantra. It has been the glue that kept us together.
It’s those three single life moments when I saw you cry.
First time’s when I was walking down the aisle towards you. Second time’s when you first held our eldest. Third time’s during our final morning together. You definitely know you’re dying, because you cried after you whispered “Forever…”
Your skin have aged with years, but your eyes and your smile remained the same. Still expressive, still endearing. That’s why I cried when I saw you inside the casket. Your eyes can never melt me again. Your smile can never warm my heart again.
“Dear,” I said in between sobs, as I look to you for the final time.
My old heart’s aching. The lump in my throat’s unbearable. But I can’t help but be grateful. 64 years, 64 long years, what more can I ask for?
“Good night, dear,” I finally said.
“I’ll wait until you can finally whisper forever again.”
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11.06.2015
©2016 Rosemawrites@A Reading Writer
A W E S O M E!!! This story really pulled me in and tugged at my heartstrings! Beautifully done!
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awww. thank you very much dear PJ! 😀
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Oh wow. 💖
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yay! thanks, love! 😀
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Well penned and touching 🙂
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thank you very much, Melanie!
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Nothing’s too long, and no there’s no fire.
Insight beautifully expressed, sister. You depict a relationship and, through your expression, make it real. Should this happen, we should feel so blessed.
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Aww. Thank you for letting those words, shine, brother! Indeed. Maybe this is somehow my heart’s prayer? 😀
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It’s a good one!
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thank you brother! 🙂
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A life lived well is more than enough we can ask for. With love, it can make all the difference.
Such a great work this is!
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i cannot agree more! 🙂 thank you very much, Alok!
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Oh my what a beautiful tear jerker!
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aww. thank you dear!
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Beautiful, that last line of dialogue!
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awww. thank you dear Jade!
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I really love this story! Beautiful, heartwarming and believable.
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that believable part is my fave compliment. thank you, Gilda!
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You are welcome! Great writing, you deserve it!💝
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A very moving piece
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thank you very much, Dahlia!
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So beautiful ❤
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awwww. thank you dear! ❤
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You are so welcome 🙂
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❤
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Beautiful, emotional, and powerful.
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Thank you very much, Felicia! 🙂
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This is so bittersweet and delightful read. Marriage is an everyday decision and sticking together is not a walk in the park. I enjoyed reading this.
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i agree! thank you dear Jacq!
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Oh dear, I’ve been reading posts from you relating to marriage dearie. Will I hear wedding bells soon? This is beautiful. ❤
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HAHA! Nope. No. Influence ito ni Sir Nicholas Sparks? Hehe.
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Romantic Rosema but in a realistic and life-like way, not the kind of romance that is merely adventure and grand feelings. Yours is a romance of a lifetime of days. Some good and some bad. As you say “a choice everyday” to be married. I love the Emily Dickinson line and I don’t think this man’s death should count on your kill count.
I have spoken of John Donne’s “A Valadiction Forbidding Mourning” before and your piece reminds me of it again. “Dull sublunary lovers love . . . Our two souls therefore, which are one,/ Though I must go, endure not yet / A breach, but an expansion, / Like gold to airy thinness beat.” This is a poem Donne writes, supposedly on his death bed, speaking to his wife. The same feelings and emotions are there, that death is not the end but an “expansion” of their relationship.
Beautiful work.
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oh woooow. that is one lovely lovely piece, Mandi! It is an honor that this tale of mine is somehow related to that beautiful poem. Thank you very much for sharing! ❤
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