Forever’s Ending

Today’s the first day of my last day with you. I’m a bit confuse, though, because my heart’s melancholic yet it’s full of joy.

Six decades, six decades and four years to be exact. That’s how long we have been together.

A lot asked how we remained committed for so long, how we kept the fire burning. We have no answer, we just look at each others’ eyes, and smile. Nothing’s too long, and no there’s no fire. It’s simple. Marriage is a choice you made everyday.

Perfect marriage isn’t true. Like any couple, we fight, cursed and almost fell apart. You cheated, twice. It took me too long to forgive, in fact, I almost packed my bags. But we choose to make amends. Why? Because it’s worth it.

No rough roads can equal our simple pleasures. It’s more than sex. It’s more than kisses. It’s your soft whispers every morning that gave me chills until we’re both seniors.

You never say good morning. Instead, you whisper Emily Dickinson’s words to my ears: “Forever is composed of nows.” It has been our marriage’s mantra. It has been the glue that kept us together.

It’s those three single life moments when I saw you cry.

First time’s when I was walking  down the aisle towards you. Second time’s when you first held our eldest. Third time’s during our final morning together. You definitely know you’re dying, because you cried after you whispered “Forever…”

Your skin have aged with years, but your eyes and your smile remained the same. Still expressive, still endearing. That’s why I cried when I saw you inside the casket. Your eyes can never melt me again. Your smile can never warm my heart again.

“Dear,” I said in between sobs, as I look to you for the final time.

My old heart’s aching. The lump in my throat’s unbearable. But I can’t help but be grateful. 64 years, 64 long years, what more can I ask for?

“Good night, dear,” I finally said.

“I’ll wait until you can finally whisper forever again.”

11.06.2015
©2016 Rosemawrites@A Reading Writer

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Originally written for Blogging University’s WRITING 101 Day 04 Assignment.
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33 thoughts on “Forever’s Ending

  1. Romantic Rosema but in a realistic and life-like way, not the kind of romance that is merely adventure and grand feelings. Yours is a romance of a lifetime of days. Some good and some bad. As you say “a choice everyday” to be married. I love the Emily Dickinson line and I don’t think this man’s death should count on your kill count.

    I have spoken of John Donne’s “A Valadiction Forbidding Mourning” before and your piece reminds me of it again. “Dull sublunary lovers love . . . Our two souls therefore, which are one,/ Though I must go, endure not yet / A breach, but an expansion, / Like gold to airy thinness beat.” This is a poem Donne writes, supposedly on his death bed, speaking to his wife. The same feelings and emotions are there, that death is not the end but an “expansion” of their relationship.

    Beautiful work.

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