I have to see her before the day ends.
I have to do it before the sun sets.
I am shaking inside as I slowly twisted the smooth metal door knob.
The smell of disinfectant welcomed me. My wrinkled skin quickly felt the cold and sterile atmosphere of the room.
I can hear nothing but the continuous ‘beep’ of the machine that I cannot really look at, yet.
I gaze around and took my time in perusing the benign prints painted with uplifting colors. No matter how many minutes I look at them, they remain ineffective.
I stared down at the almost-white and completely dustless floor.
My heart is racing. I don’t know if I am ready to take a few more step.
Inhale. Exhale. Deeply. Again.
As I went near, the smell changed. I know I am now near you because the sweet vanilla scent is now within my nose’s reach.
Oh, you smelled that way since I first saw you, 50 years ago.
I stopped at the edge of your bed.
Your mattress looks comfortable. But I know you still prefer to lay on the bed that we shared until that fateful day when your sick brain nerves snatched you from me.
I finally seat on the stainless stool beside you without looking up, yet.
Inhale. Exhale. Again.
I slowly raise by heavy head and finally see your face. You are not as young as before but your look will always be the loveliest in my eyes.
Age has never worn out your beauty, but those tubes somehow distracts me.
I stare at your face as my old hand search for yours.
I hold your always soft but now cold hand. I squeezed it with all my remaining strength wishing that your eyes will open when you feel my warmth.
I looked at you for a second, a minute, an hour. You never moved. You remained still.
I knew that the fiery red sun is now slowly sinking beneath the horizon as the orange and red streaks of light illuminate your lovely but emotionless face.
I kissed your hand and whispered ‘I love you’, for one last time.
I reached for the machine’s button.
The beeps stopped. The sun sets. My hope ends.
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09.24.2015
©2016 Rosemawrites@A Reading Writer
Powerful write. I hope it was all fiction and not something you have experienced. Be well my friend.
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Yes, dear friend. This is just fiction. 🙂 Thank you!
How are your eyes now, Andrew? I hope they are okay now. 🙂
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Waiting for surgery. Thsnks for asking.
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oh. i hope it will be well. ❤ 🙂
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Thanks
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you’re welcome! 😀
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So sad but so beautiful!
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awww. thank you dear PJ! ❤
P.S.
I published my FFfAW for this week. 🙂 It's not morbid I promise.
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🙂 🙂
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Beautiful, sad but powerful as the lonely author said
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awww. thank you for reading my dear Mel! And yes, Andrew is almost always right!
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😁 you’re welcome and yes he is
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😀 😀 😀
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How could you kill your characters lately Rosema? ….ahhh I am joking ..but I noticed you’ve been ending your poems tragically lately though.
I love it anyway. ..
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Hi there Mich! This posts are actually reposts. 🙂 They are my first bath of fictions and my morbid-writer was wide awake during that time! HAHA. So sorry for the gore! ❤
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oh….I got it hahaha. ..keep writing anyway. .
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i will surely, Mich! 😀 Thank youuuu!
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I think you must have loved Shakespeare’s ‘Romeo and Juliet’ because you love tragedy and sad endings. You are very good at writing them, that’s forsure ❤️🎈💗
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HAHAHA! Ironically, I haven’t read any Shakespeare’s work nor watch them. HAHA
Thank you dear Mandi!
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Oh, you’re missing out. A bit difficult to read at first but easy once you’ve read a couple or seen a film after or before you read the play. I highly recommend ‘A MidSummer’s Night Dream,’ Romeo and Juliet, Twelfth Night, Macbeth, and Othello. Start with those, you’ll find them at the library easily and online you can find cliffs notes to explain what’s going on 🙂 In case you don’t care, you can ignore this lol.❤️
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HAHA! I think i care but classics make my nose bleed. HAHA
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Hehe like certain kinds of alcohol, an acquired taste. But you haven’t tried those either lol. 💕
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HAHA! yeah!!! I’m missing a looot! AHAHA
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💗🌺🍷
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