Writing 101: Last Choice

I have lived a well-planned life. My mom used to tell me that I have my own decisions, ever since I’m a toddler. I choose what will I wear. I choose what will I eat. I choose anything and everything. Yep. My parents never win.

My student-self is as picky as my toddler-self. I grew old with a few good friends. I grew old with a few but definitely awesome-in-my-eyes wardrobe. I grew old with the hobbies that I truly enjoy. I grew old with a pre-determined path.

I’ll finish a degree of my choice, I’ll work at my dream company and then I’ll get to write my own love story. I’ll get married. I’ll have three kiddos, the eldest should be a boy then a girl and a boy again.

We’ll leave in a humble yet beautiful home with a grand terrace and a modern kitchen. We’ll have two cars, black for my hubby and white for me. We’ll have picnics. We’ll fight but we’ll reconcile. We’ll have our own happily ever after.

Those are just my wishful thinking. Because now, I am left with no choice.

Just last month, after I finally got my dream job, my plans were shattered, destroyed, wrecked, crushed, into tiny little pieces I can’t even recognize.

I have a big ‘C’. Stage four. Hopeless case. That I know.

No words of encouragement can make me believe that I’ll get better. Sorry, I’m not dumb.

I am left with nothing but this sickness that I have never ever planned to have.

My mind is quick, though. I still have one last option left.

Yes, cancer have destroyed everything that I have planned for. And it is destroying me, too, slowly but surely. But, I won’t let it win.

I’ll choose when will I die.

And that chosen date… is now.

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In response to Writing 101:

Day 3: One-word inspiration

Prompts come in many different forms. Sometimes, a single word is all you need to get your mind’s wheels turning. Here are six words:

HOPE
REGRET
HOME
CHOICE
ABUNDANCE
SECRET

Select one word in this list that speaks to you in some way.

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49 thoughts on “Writing 101: Last Choice

    1. Thank you so much! I think the character in the story is choosing it for real because she is a woman of choice. 🙂 She do what she wants and yes, she’ll die on her own way. 🙂
      Thank you, dear!

      BTW, what do you mean by prompts? 🙂

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      1. hehe.. With high pleasure!! 😀 😉 I like the character who makes her choices, except in the case where she decides her death.. 😦 That isn’t making her brave! 😛 Just a comment! 😀 😉 oops.. I don’t remmeebr why I wrote them there btw! 😛 sorry!! I am apologizing fr this memory error of mine! I suddenly my electricity yest and I guess my memory faded too! 😛

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  1. Wow!!! My heart stopped when I got to the end. I had to remember to take a breath. Powerful. So glad to read it’s a story and not true life. I’ve always been a dark writer, nothing wrong with that – Stephen King has made a living of it. 😉

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    1. Oh yes!!! That’s true! He’s actually one of the writers that I look up to especially when I read his non-fiction book that is not too dark, that’s On Writing. 🙂

      Thank you for your kinds words! 😀

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  2. That’s a powerful story. It shows how all are plans are meaningless without our wellbeing . What is that play ‘Of Mice and Men’ that says that our plans can so easily come to ruin. It’s interesting she chose her time to die. Though I would like to say all life has meaning I don’t know how meaningful life is if you’re sick and suffering all the time. Great job!

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    1. Thank you for sharing your view, Mandi! You points are valid. Some may judge her for killing herself but as you said, no one know a how to find a meaningful life when you’re sick. We’ll never know until we’re under that circumstance.

      Thank you!

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  3. Powerful writing and the character is so powerful. It takes a lot of courage to take that decision. I often wonder why we don’t have a choice to go easily, gracefully when living on is tough? Beautifully written.

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